Tuesday, June 30, 2015

Good News at 8 Weeks!!

Our baby is ALIVE! Measuring 8 weeks with a heartbeat of 175! Praise God!

Before Sonogram

Right After Sonogram, We Had Been Crying, Praying and Holding Hands... My first thought when the camera went on my belly was, "Jesus you are my ROCK!" Because I honestly did not know how things were going to go and no matter what I needed Him and Him alone to be my rock. Our sonographer Holly was the best! The technonlogy at a high risk Maternal Fetal Medicine office is amazing!  

Baby Macias #6

Please continue to keep us and baby's health in prayer. We have a long way to go but Baby Macias #6 is off to a great start! :) 

Monday, June 29, 2015

8 Weeks Tomorrow

We will be eight weeks pregnant tomorrow and headed to our first ultrasound for Baby Macias #6. Praying that Baby will be measuring the right size and have a strong healthy heartbeat. 

We have had some gut wrenching, life shattering ultrasounds and are just praying that tomorrow's goes wonderfully well. The three of us already love and have bonded with Baby Macias #6. We are really yearning for his or her arrival in late January 2016. We have done everything our NaPro OB and Maternal Fetal Medicine OB have asked of us. We hope they are on the right track in this guessing game. 

Please keep us in prayer tonight and tomorrow morning as our anxiety, nerves, post traumatic stress may come into play. Thank you! 

Thursday, June 25, 2015


Last night I dreamt I was having my first sonogram and I saw three babies and I said to the Doctor, "triplets?!?!" And while moving the wand she said, " babies!" I was like WTH?!?! Then we discussed why on earth did I take 50mg of Clomid for three days per my NaPro Doc in Houston (the answer is to raise my estrogen PostOvulation). Then I stood up and I was commenting on how are we going to do this, the cost of living, car situation, Rick and I will be way overwhelmed... Then I asked, "are they the right size and heartbeats?" The Doctor said, "yes!" they all looked great. We hugged and she just held me until she had to go into surgery... I have never ever had a dream like this!!! I could see all seven babies as clear as day in the sono. I doubt I am pregnant with seven babies but what a wild dream!!

Wednesday, June 24, 2015

One Day at a Time

Today is today and I am thankful for this day with Baby Macias #6. I am trying to enjoy each day but fear, worry, anxiety do creep in from time to time. Last night's MEND Subsequent Pregnancy Meeting reminded me to enjoy each day with baby. I got some great tips from Moms who have been through subsequent pregnancies on what to do when the waves of anxiety arise. Now I just need to put those words of advice into practice.

Sofia is so very excited about Baby. She already proclaims her love for Baby and lays her little hand on my belly and says, "a charming wonderful beautiful little prayer" every night. I pray God will answer her prayers and she gets to hold Baby in her arms with us come January. 

Tuesday, June 23, 2015

My Biggest Pregnancy Craving

Mango Agua Frescas! 

I need to start making these bad boys as they are costing me $5+ a pop and of course when I buy one for myself little Miss Sofia wants one for herself so multiple that cost by 2! ;) 

Seven Weeks Today!!

We are seven weeks pregnant today and praying that this little baby Macias #6 is our miracle rainbow NaPro baby. In Jesus' mighty name. Amen!

Three out of our four angels stopped developing before seven weeks but I carried them for up to nine weeks so we pray that Baby Macias #6 is alive and well! Come on rainbow baby!! 

Wednesday, June 17, 2015

Good News!

My NaPro OBGYN's office in Houston just called and told me my Progesterone is in High Zone 2 at 22.4 for 6 weeks gestation. Praise the Lord!

I was anxiously awaiting to hear what my Estardiol and HCG looked like but the nurse informed me, after the fact, that I did not need to test for these any longer since I am supplementing and the numbers are skewed/ "not helpful." :( So annoying as I will be billed for these two tests from the lab and disappointing as I was hoping they would give me insight into baby's development. A mama like me really wants to know if her baby's HCG is doubling every ~24 hours. ;)

Tuesday, June 16, 2015

A Fitting Prayer

This beautifully fitting prayer was shared with my Mom in regards to me and Baby Macias #6.

O Lord Jesus Christ, through the intercession of Your tender Mother, Our Lady of La Leche, who bore You close to her heart during those long months before Your birth, I place my baby and myself entirely in Your Hands. Free me, I beseech You, from useless and consuming worry. Accept the sacrifice of my aches and pains, which I unite to Your sufferings on the Cross. Above all, most merciful and loving Jesus, protect this child You have given to me from all harm, bestowing the health and vigor every baby needs. Implant in my heart and on my lips the words and prayers of Your Mother and mine, our Lovely Lady of La Leche. All this I ask that my child and I may live to praise forever Your Holy Name. Amen.

Monday, June 15, 2015

Progesterone Shots

Rick and I now have a new form of bonding on Mondays and Thursdays. Per my NaPro Technology OBGYN in Houston Rick nervously injects a huge needle filled with bioidentical progesterone in my rear end. Fun times! 😜

Waiting on Blood Test Results

I just had my blood drawn this morning and now I wait... Waiting to hear what my HCG, Progesterone and Estradiol look like. I am praying that they are sky high for six weeks. It will take days for me to get my results as my blood is drawn in Dallas, then FedExed to a GenPath Lab in New Jersey that my NaPro Technology OBGYN in Houston works with since the lab is "calibrated" for analyzing blood the NaPro way. HCG is HCG wherever you go but NaPro calculates Progesterone and Estradiol a bit differently. Praying that I am at the high end of the range! 

Saturday, June 13, 2015

My Pregnancy Symptoms Thus Far

I am 5 weeks 4 days along and my first and most prominent pregnancy symptom has been constipation. I feel like it literally started right after conception. No kidding! It was the first headsup that I might be pregnant. I rarely get constipated usually only after surgery, when pregnant or for some reason when I travel to Bogota, Colombia, maybe it has something to do with the altitude. 

My second symptom was very sore breasts at night when changing into my pajamas. 

My third symptom right before I tested positive was frequent urination during those crazy rainstorms we had in May. One night I was up going to the bathroom like every five minutes. ;)

I tested positive for pregnancy on Tuesday, June 2nd and since then I have had a couple of moments of sudden nausea, fatigue, drooling/ excess saliva and my uterus/ belly feels all stretched out particularly at night in bed when I turn from one side over to the other side. I have also had little twinges/ pinches here and there which make me pause and wonder if everything is ok. That is the million dollar question, "is everything ok this sixth time around?" ;)

Thursday, June 11, 2015

RPL & Anxiety

googled staying calm after Repeat Pregnancy Loss and this blog entry was the first to pop up:

I appreciate the author's honesty! Anxiety was constant for her. For me it comes and goes in waves. I hate it. And like her with each pregnancy after my third loss, Baby Jo, it has become more intense. One thing that is kind of helping right now is that I have only had two blood tests the first HCG and Progesterone and the 48 hour HCG check. With my last pregnancy with baby Jude my blood was being tested like every other weekday which was intense. My numbers looked great but Jude's heartbeat stopped after two vaginal ultrasounds anyway. I have learned that it is all about baby's heartbeat. Sure it is good to know you have high Progesterone and your HCG is doubling those first six weeks of pregnancy but after that it is all about baby's heartbeat. 

Injecting HCG and Progesterone on Mondays and Thursdays helps calm me down. I have actually got to the point where I want to do my injections as soon as I wake up, most do them at night when their hubby gets home from work. Rick has just been going in late, not sure how long we can keep that up. ;) The injections calm me down I think because they make me feel like I am doing SOMETHING to help baby. Taking my LDN before bed helps me feel that way too. Man, I hope they are really helping Baby Macias #6. The injections are not easy, pain, blood and bruising accompany some of them. I pray they will all be worth it 32 weeks from now. 

Certain Bible verses, talking to other RPL Moms and my new Subsequent Pregnancy MEND Mom friend helps too. Knowing that we have Priests, family and friends praying for us and Baby Macias #6 this early on is comforting. 

Knowing that NaPro is running blood tests on me every other Monday helps especially between ultrasounds. They will be checking my HCG, Progesterone and Estradiol. They may add additional supplementation if my numbers are on the low side of the range. I pray they will all be on the high end. 

Staying busy or hanging out with friends when Rick is at work helps distract me which is very nice. Anyone up for a weekday playdate or daytime Mommy date? ;) 

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

A Complete Stranger Just Said, "Congratulations!!"

So Sofia and I were sitting outside of Starbucks this morning and a complete stranger, referring to me, said, "and she is expecting #2! Congratulations!!" with a huge smile on her face. This led to another Mom at a nearby table congratulating me. I said, "thank you." But man I was thinking WTH?!?! I must be FAT!! Or glowing... ;) People have nerve man. Can you imagine if I was not pregnant? That has happened to me before but never outside amongst strangers and so loudly/ enthusiastically. I just avoid bringing up the pregnancy topic to strangers after everything I have been through. If the comments/ conversation had kept going I would have told these strangers my truth that yes I am expecting BUT for the sixth time and I am only 5 weeks 1 day along and the belly you are seeing is probably from weight gain after my third and fourth losses, post three surgeries and two rounds of prednisone (which I hate by the way). Can you imagine how the tone would have changed?!?! My how much have the three of us been through and how AKWARD and tricky it can be for us in random social settings like Starbucks. #lifeafterrepeatpregnancyloss

Friday, June 5, 2015

Good Results

Praise the Lord! My 48 hour results just came in and they are great! My HCG more than doubled. Checkout the note too. :)

Thursday, June 4, 2015

Waiting on 48 Blood Test Results

Waiting on 48 hour blood test results sucks especially when for whatever reason my Maternal Fetal Specialist/ OB did not post by close of business today. I am hoping the lab or she were just backed up on work.

For me pregnancy after (multiple) loss bounces back and forth between excitement/ hope/ joy and jittery fear/ worry/ terror. 

This pregnancy I am trying to quote scripture for such a time as this. Fortunately I have a lot of ammunition from two of my support groups: Shiloh and Moms in the Making. Thank God I started attending those groups during my break before this pregnancy. 

Wednesday, June 3, 2015

Pregnant for a Sixth Time

Yesterday we found out for sure that we are pregnant with Baby Macias #6! I kind of can't believe it although I knew it. I am so so grateful for every life/ every child God has cocreated with us. We are blessed to at least know we have been able to cocreate six children, we are now officially a family of eight!! Half of us Macias' live on earth and the other half live in Heaven. The later part of that truth has been a very heavy cross for us. There is comfort in knowing at least my four children in Heaven are perfectly healthy and WELL taken care of by God the Father. I pray that this sixth baby of ours is healthy and will continue to live with us on earth. In Jesus' mighty name! Amen!